A Disappointment

Perhaps, what would be worst that failing yourself is failing your parents, to hear them say, "I'm disappointed at you." Or even just to see their eyes convey their sadness at how you weren't able to reach their expectations.

Maybe this is why despite the boring routine of having to work for the family, I stay and I strive... So that one day, maybe, they can truly, honestly, wholeheartedly say, "I am proud of you."

Someday... Maybe...

Changing

Change is hard.

It is in our human nature to resist change, and yet, change is also inevitable. Even the hardest of rocks gets weathered and transformed by nature's elements... Sometimes, even without it moving an inch.

I turned 25 this year and I vowed to change. I announced to the world that I would make this year a truly unforgettable one. And that only meant that I HAVE BECOME WILLING TO CHANGE, to be sharpened and molded into becoming a better version of me. And for someone as stubborn and as "sigurista" as I am, it would mean risking failure and becoming openly vulnerable to whatever God plans for me.

Fear tries to hold me back, but a voice inside me reminds me of my promise to change. So I go on, one uncertain step at a time with a lot of faith in my heart, and bright smile on my face. See you when I get there!

Here's to a new me! Cheers! :D