Turning 21

Turning 21


Hummin': La-hum-hum-doo-wop-doo-wop...

I've turning 21 on the 6th of May. Five days remain and I will be of legal-legal age. Hehehe. I'm proclaiming it through this blog just so I don't forget about it, like I used to almost every year.

I've been thinking of buying myself something for that special day, but since I'm not the type of person who wants a lot of expensive things, nor did I feel like I wasn't blessed enough (okay, the thought of having a genie grant me a lean, sexy body did come across...), I had a hard time thinking of a self-present.

The answer came to me when I hopped onto my favorite blog read in the wooorld, and remembered CHEESECAKE, the famous baked cheesecake dessertcomesfirst.blogspot.com. (My being a sugar-and-calorie-fanatic can no longer be denied.) And so, I emailed the amazing-food-writer-slash-sweets-aficionado of about wanting to order one, and even though the pleading look in my face didn't come across the electronic letter, she must have felt it because she said YES!

I was thrilled to almost hyperventilation! Ahhhhh!!! *jumps up and down with joy*

Anyways, thank you, Lori. I'm sure this birthday will be a day that's hard to forget. See you!

(On hindsight, I just realized how easily pleased and dangerously dessert-obsessed I am. LOL.)

Still In There

According to people who knew me the most, or thought they knew me the most, I was lazy. Often, I was even referred to as a useless, expensively-maintained tub of lard. Then, my image changed when I lost all that huge baggage, literally. Hard work, discipline and determination were suddenly used as adjectives beside my name, and people saw me in a new light.

Not that I'm complaining. After all, I think recognition for my efforts was long overdue, and I was so tired of being perceived to be good-for-nothing.

This week marked my first month on the job. I'm glad to report that I am actually still in the running, despite all the mishaps and disappointments!

Maybe it's because of my two, uber hardworking, amusing, wicked, recently-resigned PR & Marketing bosses, or the pressure of having to live up to my family and friends' expectations; but surprisingly enough, when I had the time to sit down and reflect on the month that whizzed by, I realized just how diligent, active and determined I had been.

Even I must admit that I passed my own expectations. I performed well, much better than I anticipated. And as each week passed by, I learned more about myself, both strengths and weaknesses I didn't know I possessed. I am proud of the changes I had undergone in order to be more flexible and versatile, but I am only in the beginning.

All will be put to the real test when the new system kicks in. I will have to start back from the bottom and work my way up to adjust to the new superiors and altered hierarchy in the office. I am taking on the challenge, one day and night at a time, striving to be a person I myself would admire.

A Bit Down

A Bit Down

Hummin': Liwanag sa Dilim by Rivermaya

I think the workaholic epidemia here has gotten to me. My two workaholic bosses who I just look up to sacrifice breakfast, lunch, dinner and sleep just to get all the work done, which by the way never gets done as more things keep coming in. I think I might be infected.

See, I used to enjoy leisure time. Now, I get sad when I'm not doing anything (not because I don't want to but because I've finished my tasks for that day at least). I feel lazy, useless and unproductive, almost to the point of feeling guilty.

Sigh. The pressure is building up too, as more and more responsibilities and obligations are added to my workload. I will be the only one left here in a week or two. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do.

Especially if the next two bosses of mine turn out to be snobbish, lazy, unreasonable social butterflies, then I'm out of here. Seriously. When asked about what my plans are regarding my career, I always say that I do not have a concrete plan yet, but I will continue working for a company so long as I am growing. But when the learning stops, then I will have to look for someplace else where I can still grow.


I'm so so so scared.